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Sun, Sep. 24th, 2006, 10:02 pm

I'm happy the way things are going.
I'm so happy I started talking to Kira yesterday, I missed her so much. And I realize before I was bitter and now there's no reason to be. I've made friends at Glebe, hopefully some will turn out to be longterm friends. You never know what's gonna happen.
I'd like to see myself at the end of the year.
I wish I could right now.
xx
Nika

Wed, Sep. 13th, 2006, 10:43 pm

BOOOOOOOOO!:)

Wed, Aug. 30th, 2006, 12:16 am

So the Ex is over. I liked performing overall. It was less embarassing than last year, seeing I wasn't wearing tye dye (or however you spell it). This week is going by slowly and uneventfully. Ew highschool starts soon. My momcalled Glebe to change my schedule cause I'm going to Italy during final exams so my first term consists of English, French, Math and Science. WOW mid terms are going to suck ass. I'm going to killmyself. But at least for second term its Tech, Drama, GYm and Geo...oh well.

So today was mine and Cailean's one year anniversary. He made me cry this morning because he was being super ultra sweet and wrote me this card..I won't write it down here. He gave me a really pretty silver bracelet though and it has my name engraved on it.
AHH.<3
It really didn't definitely feel like a year.

Hmm, I'm relaly not ready for highschool at all. I'm kind of dreading it. This summer felt really short and small and grr I wish it as 3 months long.
I'm being really ADD with my typing.Not actually.
But you get the point.
x
Nika

Sat, Aug. 19th, 2006, 12:54 am

I'm so detached.
Detached from everyone. My friends, my family, and I've ended up feeling worse and worse about myself as my summer goes on. I now have another ex-boyfriend to add to my extremely tiny list of ex's. And that makes me mostly sad and mostly regretful, but if you had had the same argument, you would have done the same. No one should go through someone making you feel like complete and utter shit. If they do, they're not worth it. Or so I've learned. I can't connect with my friends anymore. I feel as if I have no one. Honestly, no one.

I told one of my close friends my deepest secret, and now she's a complete and utter bitch.
I never want to see her again, although I'm forced to.

The person who was the most important to me has disappeared from my life.
And I'm scared to take another step ahead, because I'm so unsure now.

One of my best friends is so obsessed with her boyfriend, she won't bother talking to me anymore.
It's cool, if you like having half a best friend, as her other half is almost completely devoted to someone.

It's like I went bungee jumping, someone forgot to attach the cord properly, and I lost everything.
Because now my brain seems to be going on auto pilot.
And I don't seem to be here much anymore.

Wonderbar.
Nika.

Wed, Aug. 16th, 2006, 11:06 am

I never realized how long it takes for things to sink in...after they end.

Sat, Aug. 5th, 2006, 12:44 am

Life can be so dumb.
I almost threw up 3 times tonight and my stomach feels like shit. Although, this night was super great. I don't know why I'm calling life dumb. I just feel so distant from everyone. It's like I have no one to talk to, cause everyone's busy with their own problems. I have a lot of amazing friends, but nobody takes the time just to listen anymore. I'm not complaining. I understand people can't always be interested in why I feel so crappy, but sometimes it's nice to let things out. Just another rant from yours truly.

Sat, Jul. 29th, 2006, 01:57 pm

KIRA'S BACKK!!! OH EM GEE WHY THE HELL IS MY WRITING SO BIGG!
xx
NIKA

Wed, Jul. 26th, 2006, 12:03 am

What a shitty ass night.
I just want to shoot myself.

Tue, Jul. 18th, 2006, 01:11 pm

IM BORED!

Thu, Jul. 13th, 2006, 03:54 pm

It's funny how I can hate him so much,
...and then fall right back in love at the drop of those three words.
"I Love You"
....
Oh Nika, You're such a pushover.
I know, I know.
xx
Nika

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